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erg. im at the stage of anger. fuck depression -.-'' angered is good :@ grrrr

so sorry to those i cannot seem to get through to. sorry that i can't help with my lousy advice giving. i can barely give Myself advice, i can barely figure my own bullshit out. all i can give is a shoulder to cry on right now. someone to rant off to.

rmb i'll always try to be here for you, whoever you may be. <3

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i see people having their problems tore their lives apart... i see them cry, i cry silently with them. i see them emotionless, i see them depressed. it hurts to see friends hurt. :'(

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i forgot something very important in life... i forgot that.. when you love someone so much... that the only thing you want for them is happiness. in my own anger, in my own depression, i forgot that. and i was reminded tonight. and all i hope for is happiness for you. i understand now.

hahaha

isnt it insaaaane how life can change in just the wink of an eye. this year has certainly brought me many, many trials. and i have faced them all. whether it be with support from my friends, or no support.

over these last few days, my mind has been racing. thoughts and emotions coming in and out of my head and heart as fast as lightening comes and goes in vancouver. it has left me with one too many unanswered question, one too many heart wrenching pains. but it has also left me with incredible strength to carry on. every lesson learned is a new step in life.

and to pay tribute to ol' valentines. sigh ...to be corny: love is in the air! im happy for all the couples who are standing strong, giving and taking all the love from each other. im happy for myself... no more drowning in my tears. im sure i will have my moments, but what the fuck lol life goes on :D i've gained so much confidence and become soo much stronger. and i have You to thank and appreciate.

what the future will bring, i no longer have the urge to know, as the curious child i am :p, but to live life day by day and experience. i have learned to appreciate everything life tosses at me-- whether it be good or bad. and yes! i still dont really give a fuck about what everyone says. the opinions that i truly care about, and actually listen to, are only from my True friends. all the other shit? lol yeah i'll listen~ and i'll also laugh it off.

its a new chapter in my life. and i intend to make it a good one :)

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so dont worry la.... but remember, although my actions do not always match my thoughts...my arms are always open, and welcoming

a guy said this...

"girls are like apples. the best ones are at the top of the tree. the boys don`t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground that aren`t as good, but easy. so the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them....when in reality, they are amazing. that is why you gurls just have to be a little patient and the right boy, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple will come someday and pick you..... "

what a sweetheart eh?

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so dear i love him that with him
all death i could endure
without him, live no life

life

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sigh